Breakfast!

I'm back on a smoothie kick! Mostly I just throw a bunch of fruits and veggies in the blender and drink it up. This morning I found a recipe for a sunrise smoothie. I used that as a start, and added spinach, milk, water, and honey. It's super yummy. It's not as pink as usual because I didn't add raspberries or blackberries, but if you put it in a colored cup, you can't even tell what color it is. So here's what I did:

1 banana

10 Oz frozen strawberries

Juice from 3 small clementines

2 handfuls of spinach

1/2 cup frozen oj concentrate

1 cup whole milk

1 cup water

1 cup vanilla Greek yogurt

2 tbs honey

I blend the liquid and spinach first, and longest so there aren't bits floating around. After that I just add a few things, and blend in between. 

Change is good!

I can drink milk!

And eat cereal!

And drink orange juice!

And drink water!

The thought of coke still makes my tummy turn, so I'll hold off. I really should just give it up, especially since I haven't had a coke for 5 months!!! But really, I miss the burn of the carbonation. 

I've returned to the stage of nothing really sounds good, and I don't want to cook, but put it in front of me and I'll probably eat it. 

I probably should take a belly photo. This baby is really pushing out. I either really don't remember how being pregnant felt, or this one is pretty different. (Except for the sick part.) I got uncomfortable pretty quickly, and it's not getting any easier. Sleeping is rough. Walking is rough. Sitting is rough. But, this little boy is worth every second. I can't wait to meet him and kiss his sweet chubby cheeks. Just about 12 weeks! 

Here's my latest project. This one is actually for Maddox. I never got around to making him one, and this time around I am in constant need of a project.

Beauty.

I have a routine most mornings, that includes sitting across the room from this wall.

It's perhaps my most favorite place to sit. The sun comes in through the windows and reminds me winter won't last forever. I love looking up from my project and seeing my beautiful family. I love seeing the different stages of my kids. Their newborn pictures to their school pictures. I only wish the wall were bigger so I could have more pictures. Lately I've been looking at it knowing another sweet face will soon be added. 

Water=Heartburn

I can finally handle small amounts of water without puking it up, and I've re-discovered my pregnancy craving for pebble ice. Sonic is my BFF and it's a good thing it's so close. However, it is giving me heartburn like crazy! It still blows my mind that water, of all things, gives pregnant people heartburn. I have had heartburn anyways, but of course there's a daily med for that, and it's done it's job very well. Until I started drinking water and eating ice. I don't know what's worse though, the heartburn, or the dehydration. I have been dreaming of water for most of my pregnancy, and waking up thirstier than ever, knowing that drinking the water would just cause me to vomit. Vicious cycle. The things we go through to get children here, and keep them here.

I just keep picturing this sweet boy in my arms, with his head of dark fuzzy hair. The profile picture from the ultrasound sits at my computer desk to remind me that it's all worth it! It's crazy to look at it and be able to see that even at 19 weeks and 3 days he looks like my other two. 10 weeks and 3 days left. Or, if things progress exactly as the other two did, 10 weeks. The other two were both born 3 days early. I went into labor at the same time. Arrived at the hospital at nearly the same time. And delivered within 2 minutes of being the same time. We shall see how this one goes! Though I would prefer to wait it out at home longer this time. A little less chaotic and maybe more comfortable? At least for Luke.

And with that, I shall get back to the job that pays in $, before the job that pays in kisses resumes.

(PS; I have procrastinated less this week than I did last week. Miracles do happen.)

Dear Me....

Please stop procrastinating your work...the work from the job that pays in dollars. The long days at the computer are beginning to be unbearable. Just do a little bit each day, problem solved.
Much obliged.

RE: Dear Me,
If you haven't learned to overcome procrastination in the last 30 years, what makes you think you will now?
Keep trying.

Sometimes

...this feels so long ago, and other times it feels like only yesterday. 

This was two years ago! Two years ago we were planning a Wish Trip, and scheduling the Fontan. So crazy!

Looking at this picture makes me think about both the past and the future. I wonder how long he'll go without needing oxygen help. How long until we have to find another way to help his heart work well enough. How long until we walk the transplant road. 

I know I try and enjoy every day with both of my kids, and that's because of all the unknowns and what ifs regarding Maddox.  That's a blessing. A tender mercy.