We've had a lot of fun this Summer! But it seems like it's gone too fast! We've had birthday's (Bailee's 5th and Maddox's 2nd!), mini-vacations (to Hiko twice and Kanab), visitors (Grandma B, Grammy and Grampy), and friend's moving closer. We've worked hard and played harder. We've built, dug, created, moved, piled, cut, nailed, planted, enjoyed. And Bailee starts Kindergarten in 27 days! Agghhh!
I have a lot of posts I want to write, but today I just want to get something off my chest.
Maddox is doing amazing! He is growing, and learning and breathing and eating. I couldn't ask for more! Or could I? His next surgery, the fontan, is ever on my mind. I watch him closely and wonder how much longer. I know I should focus on all of the good things, and I truly am grateful that he is so well, but I want to put the fontan behind us. I dread the days in the hospital, of being so near to him and not being able to hold him, of not being able to explain to him what or why. So many things. And I really am grateful for so many things. But I get thinking about this, and then wondering, and it's a really huge deal. This is a huge surgery and really scary and really necessary. Then I get feeling guilty because so many other people have such harder roads than we do.
And I get frustrated when people complain about stuff that I feel is trivial but maybe it's a big deal for them. And maybe I shouldn't be so judgmental about it. I know we aren't given trials we can't handle, and I just need to be grateful that God has given me the strength to go through this with Maddox. And I guess I need to pray for more patience with other people's complaints about their trials. I don't feel like I've complained about this. It is what it is. But I guess sometimes I just wish people were a little more sensitive in their venting. And again, I need to not let it bother me. Signing off. Maddox is awake from his nap and I need to go look at him and be reminded of how God is really so good.
